I Like To Move It, Move It

I like to go to school. Despite the studying, whenever there's nothing to do or just the usual boring times yknow
With people like those A-hole clowns in class, it is exactly like eating BR's World Class Chocolate, get me ? Hahahaha
I mean, it feels good or maybe, great, going to school and laugh your arses off, til your stomach feels like it's gonna burst anytime
Now, I'm not gonna start babbling about what happened in school. Just that..

• Izreen and I poured ice water and threw ice at Harisah in class. The continuation of the lack-of-fun pogo yesterday. The ice we used, actually I was using it as an ice pack for my right hips. Thanks to Fareez, he dropped it and the plastic tore open I think.

• Pinched Danial's stomach after only God knows how long :D That was my hobby last year hahaha. Sekarang rasa puas and macam lepaskan geram sampai perut dia merah (Y)
  

• We planned to ask Ustazah Ruha questions about marriage during Amali. But then, datang ilham kot ( HAHA ), there were lots of questions in our mind. Just to waste our time yknow :p

*Hariz pegang kaki Fareez and macam raba raba. Ustazah tengah cakap, tetiba stop*
Ustazah : Awak tengah buat apa Hariz ?
Hariz : Huh ? Oh tgh sikat bulu kaki dia
Us : HAHAHAHA

I hate waking up from a nap and start to sneeze. It makes my nose itch and red like a clown's nose :(
Then my dad will think that I have a flu, which leads to.. Medicine !
I won't rant about it anymore but &^%$#
Okay, I'm done

Oh and, I'll be going to the cheer competition this Sunday. I can't wait cause I heard, a lot of people are going on Sunday
Sah nampak banyak muka familiar hahaha
As a good friend, I'll be supporting Sri Aman's D'Starz ( Betul ke ? ). I'll even wear that orange shirt just to support that school
Bak kata Cikgu Nik : I like it ahak ahak hahahaha

And..

I'M OUT !

Hurry, I'm Falling

You know that it'll be hard to decide between something you don't ever want to happen and something you hope it will happen by not giving up.
You hope that you will be given a second chance but just by how that person treats you, you know you don't even have the slightest chance.
But sometimes, just by knowing that that person laughs to something you said that you don't have the intention to make him laugh, you started to have that smile that sorta lightens up your face.
By the way he talks to you, his words, his sentence, they can make your frown turn upside down.
That's when you started saying to yourself, "I think I have a chance. He seems to be the one I've been missing all along. He seems to be the one I had a fling last time. He seems to be the person I like."
And albeit you had a bad day, when you're talking to him, you'll say to yourself that your day wasn't that bad. As a matter of fact, it was great. It was great just because you talked to him, just because you're happy that you talked to him.
Do you get the picture ?

I made my decision which I don't know if he even realizes it. When I made that decision, I was thinking of the consequences. And you have no idea how hard it was to make that small move for a beginner.
My first move of this process called 'moving on' was taking him off that pretty little top friends. I know you guys might say, "Laa tu je. Apa yang susah ? -.-"
My first thought was deleting him off my myspace. My choice was either to delete him off my myspace or just remove him off my top friends. Now tell me that I'm bold enough to even think of deleting him off my myspace.
But my friends said, just remove him off top friends first and that's what I did.

His messages are still in my inbox and I don't know why I can't delete this one message that never fails to make me cry. His explanation of the misunderstanding that led us to an argument that I regret, til now.
I kept asking myself, is it worth it to keep all those things after what I've gone through ? After how he has been treating me ?
My answer to myself is no. But I still can't press that delete button.

You can call me pathetic, whatever you want. I know I'm pathetic, I admit I'm pathetic, I've been calling myself pathetic.
But what can I do now ? I think everyone agrees that moving on is the thing that hurts the most, right ? It symbolizes that you have to forget the fling you guys had, forget everything that happened and then, you're left with.. Nothing, I suppose ?
Delete everything you have that reminds you of him. And when you've moved on, maybe you will still be in contact with that person you loved or maybe not.
In my situation where I've been the only one who said the hellos, I won't be putting any high hopes of him breaking the ice first yknow.

I want to know, when will I shrug this feeling off of me. When will I forget everything. When will I have the guts to just live and forget and delete everything that will bring me back to the past.
When can I forget the guy that used to be by my side, through thick and thin ?

You're the one who turned my frown upside down. You're the who convinced me that everything will eventually be alright. You're the one with the charm. You're the one I cared so much. You're the first person that I gave my art that I did when I was bored to.
Conclusion is, you're the first of everything that has never ever happened to me. You're the first person that I've met, that never fails to lighten up my day . And what more can I say ?
You're the best of the best !

Everything gets harder when sometimes, my mom and sister ask me about you
My sister likes you. She said, you look like a gentleman, you look like someone who can make me happy, who can be trusted. Among all the guys I liked, she said she's happy that I've met you. But I feel like I have to disagree.
Whilst my mom, sometimes she ask me, what's up with me and you. If I'm online, she'll ask, am I talking to you. If I'm texting, she'll ask, am I texting with you. My answers will be "I don't know", "No" and "No". Hmm

I care for you so much, I like or maybe love you so much, that right now it hurts.
Because of this miserable feeling, I'm blaming myself for knowing you, for getting ourselves into that argument, for everything.
If you didn't say hello to me on MSN, none of this will happen though.
It was just a wrong move, that's all.

Yes, I'm that miserable emotional bitch here.

Quote : cozz *insertname* xde rase intrest kt u dh pon

Yours truly x

Big Bad World

Did God create human being to torture other living things or should I say, animals ?

Browsing through Youtube, watching music videos and search for random things are just the usual things I do when I'm bored
I didn't even hope or want to come across a few videos of tortured animal. It makes me wonder, why don't those people who torture those animals, imagine they're in the animals' situation ? I bet they will feel the pain. I bet the animals feel like, they rather die right at that moment than being tortured
If you have the guts, if you feel like it's a stupid thing, try watching this :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5dxkdvR-xwI

That video is even categorized under the "This video may not be suitable for minors". That proves it's cruel
You tell me, why shouldn't I be furious about it ?! I bet you are too, if you watch that effing video !
I feel like I wanna do those things they do to those animals, to them back. Biar diorang tahu apa rasa dia !


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Right now, I think I'm addicted to CS. Albeit I still suck at it or maybe like Izreen always say, "Noob", I'm getting the hang of it (Y)
Mom will be SO upset if she knows that I'm addicted to that game !
She warned me about it, about getting addicted to it. Oh shit

Drops Of Jupiter

Almost every radio stations have been contributing M. Jackson's songs. Yes, if you read the papers or watch the news or listen to the radio, you'll know this
Since almost everyone knows about this, I won't elaborate anything else
Just that, I don't get it why are the radio stations are playing M. Jackson's songs over and over again ?

Anyway,
I'm still in KL, as you can see. No, I didn't follow my parents to Arau, Perlis to send my brother cause well, the main reason of me following was that, I didn't wanna stay alone with my maids
But then, after I've taken my bath, wanted to put in my bags into the trunk of the car, my sister said that she's staying home. It was so last minute -.-
I wanted to stay home cause I knew, what's there in Perlis, hmm ? But at the same time, I thought that maybe it'll be dull, staying at home yknow. Last last, I chose to stay home cause my sis said, my mom left $$$ at home *grins*
I made a deal with mom and dad, not to go out with friends and all. I don't think I will, but I will go out with my sister, her boyfriend and my cousin

Open Day went well. I got 5th place in class and in the whole Form 2
For the first time in the year 2009, my mom said congratulations :)

Yesterday, went to watch Transformers 2 with Asif, Jalil, Harris, Kakak and her boyfriend
I have to say, that movie.. SUMPAH BEST GILA ! (Y)(Y)(Y)
It's a must-watch movie. I wanna watch it again. I don't think I'll feel even a tad bit bored with that movie. It's just superb, awesome !

Last but not least, I've been pretty emotional recently. A few breakdowns here and there. Right now, I'm just waiting for the right time to burst into tears
I think and hope that'll make me feel better. Way better :(

PS : Tak sampai sehari pun lagi, tapi dah rindu Mama !

Chronic

I'm just making a pit stop here, before I continue doing my KH notes and then Seni Folio
My running nose in not helping me on making things better, at all !
My eyes are a bit swollen which made my mom thought that I cried. At the same time, I feel sleepy. That happens when I'm having a flu - Swollen eyes and feeling sleepy
Coughing makes Ventolin as my best friend for now
Those are just the right reasons for me to be lazy. Now, I hate it when I feel lazy !
Whilst, I hope I don't get that H1N1 thingy. I don't think I do pun.

Trip to GSC to watch Transformers 2 was canceled cause my cousins were in an accident
A few minor cuts and both came to my house with bruised up head hahaha. Nasib dua dua tak botak
Since my sis and her boyfriend helped them to report at the police station and all, yeah the plan was canceled
Nevermind, we plan to go tomorrow
You wonder why can't we just go on Saturday or next week ? Well it's because my brother's going to UiTM this Saturday, so we just want him to have a good time before going back to 'SCHOOL'

School was normal. Only that Izreen wrote on Harisah's hand, using a permanent marker. He scribbled and wrote 'Cibai'. Just typical Izreen yknow

I think that's all about my day. Nothing great or whatsoever

PS : Gee, I wonder why we had that fling hmm ? If we didn't have anything last year, none of this heartache moments would have happened.

Rebel Yell

*Akon's song was on the radio*
Jalil : Haa, ni la Britney Spears
Me : Kudos -.-'

Hi !
So Jalil is my cousin and I always have arguments with him. They day will never end without and arguement

Whatever, this post is not about him
What happened for the past 2 days ?
Yesterday, as the first day of the week, which also known as, the first day of school for the week, was okay
Nothing much happened. Came up that we'll be having our report card day this Friday. I was all jolly molly cause I'll be off to Perlis on Friday. But hey, it's impossible if my mom or dad is gonna miss the report card day
So either one of them is going, fosho !

Today, I got my English paper and it was a freaking 70 -.- A freaking B ! That's like, shitzo. I mean, a B for English. Pretty shocking and sad
But it's a good news that I got number 5 in class (Y)
To me, 5th is still good cause that class is not lack of smarty pants students. My mom told me yesterday that on the report card day, she'll ask the teacher what number do I get. If it's 10 and above, she'll just leave -.- Bagus betul
Heck, I got number 5 :D

Did I tell you that I love school ? It's impossible if I don't laugh when I'm in school hahaha
With Izreen as the most annoying, dirty talker and .. Well, just fun. With Seng Yung who laughs til his face turns red. With Hariz who never stop talking craps
Gang belakang kelas kita paling cool dalam 2 Edison lah !

And now, about the Swine Flu

Jalil : Aku pelik, kenapa diorang nak susah susah panggil H1N1 ? Kan lagi senang and sopan kalau cakap je, selesema BABI

It strikes like a mad cow ! Nearest to TTDI is DU. I heard that SMKDU's student got that flu
Sumpah tengah cam takut with that thing. It's like a serial killer
Dah la I'm going to Bangkok on the 16th of July. I hope I won't get that babi flu :( I'll make sure I wear a mask !

And oh, I'm not sure if I'm going to dinner or not. I feel so lazy after knowing that Carlos is handling the performances and he said that we're singing. You have no idea what songs he chose. Semua macam tah pape and nak nyanyi pun cam susah. For example ; Katy Perry - Waking Up In Vegas. Boleh mati kalau nak bagi kitorang nyanyi okay -.-
Whatever, my mom said that if we don't find the dress in Bangkok, most probably I shouldn't go
At the same time, I'll think about it. It can be a great night and I'll regret it if I miss it, no ?
So yeah, I'll think about it