Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Silence, Kill Me Softly

"I am in misery. There ain't no other who can comfort me."

; Maroon 5 - Misery

It's either I've lost faith in humanity or humanity ain't acting nice to me. We all know, nothing's perfect. Perfection is not real. But when someone actually thinks something is perfect, that probably is right from one's point of view, get me ? Generally speaking, nothing is perfect. Some things have to be wrong at some point of view.

Everyone has their own ways of rolling and dealing with things. If people actually have a problem with how you deal with things, it's their problem. Why should you care ? As long as you think what you're doing is right, as long as you don't feel like you're carrying guilt with the weight of the world on your shoulders, then it's fine.
My mom taught me to make my own decisions cause what we decide is better than asking for people's decisions. So screw you if you have a problem with how I deal with things.

We all know that everyone changes. When that happens, there's no one left that's real. I get the whole Everyone-Changes phase. I'm fine with it if you don't change into someone I dislike, into someone who's the complete opposite of you. I've been seeing my friends change into someone that I don't even tend to know. I'm used to it, believe it or not ? Last time, I'd give a flying tuck and try to confront them. But that's the past. I'm done. I have a new policy. I won't do anything, I'll just drift away. So when that happens, when I start to not talk to any of you out of a sudden, you know why.

Betrayal and hypocrisy. Ah probably the "it" thing, huh ? Apology won't cure this, apology isn't the medicine. You think it's so easy to be forgiven when you've betrayed someone, when you've became a hypocrite ? Knock your head twice with a rock or something and call yourself a moron. I don't provide second chances when you've betrayed me okay :) Some people are just so generous to give a second chance. I wonder, how could you trust a betrayer, a hypocrite ? How different people are right ?

A friend of mine said, "Accept people for who they are if you want them to accept you for who you are". Easier said than done, no ?

My mind is messed up. I have a best friend whom I've known for a year plus and he's not himself anymore. The way he treats me, the way we communicate, just not right.
I have a girl friend whom I'm not sure to trust or not. She is a good friend, to be frank. But you know what rumors can do right ?
Another best friend of mine ain't the same person anymore. Same shit all over again. I'm sick of this, I'm tired. Problems come after one and another, non-stop. Gimme some space, I need to take a breather !

This post is such a waste of time. This is my comeback, mhmm. Sickness, begone ! Problems, begone !