Expectations Run High

Sports Day on the 29th of April was a blast !

I'm still waiting for Izreen to upload the pictures, haisho that boy ah so slow like a turtle. Yes, blame his laziness.

It turned out that my anxiety helped me, a bit. Managed to get bronze for 4x100m. Albeit it wasn't my best shot, at least Red got bronze for that event. I could've maintained my position but when I was running, my backbone and my injured leg started to hurt. Damn, I thought that ointment for muscles worked. So from the second spot, I slowed down when I felt a penetrating pain on my back and leg, which made me fall to the third spot. Haih, sorry :(

Green reclaimed their title as the champion of the Sports Day, Blue got second, followed by Red, then Yellow. Thank God, Red got third. But I doubt that next year, Red can maintain its title or get a better spot. Will keep my fingers crossed though.

Wasted my time wishing for May to be a great month. It clearly isn't treating me fairly. I believe it is the worst month ! How uncool is that huh ? It's only the 4th day of the month and this is not how I want it to be.

Started off the month with a huge smile on my face though. Tokio Hotel's concert was just amazing. Some people say that it was a bore but contrary to those people's belief, I had an awesome time ! Go on, disagree, I'm still hanging onto my opinion :)

My plan was to go there early and buy a few things since I missed my chances to shop a couple of times. But I had to run some errands. Arrived there at 4.30 and met up with Harisah and Luen. I felt sorry for Luen, he had to walk around with Harisah for hours hahaha. After buying a tank top, met up with Erin and her friend, then went to Waffle World to update each other on things that we were supposed to update during Sports Day.

Decided to enter the concert around 6.30pm, so we did. Erin's friend had two extra tickets but we failed to find buyers.

I saw a lot of familiar faces but of course, I didn't say 'Hi', blame my shyness.

Throughout the concert, I was with Harisah, Erin, Amira (Erin's friend), Razif, Sofia, Miera & Mia, Syafiq and his gang. We were sweating bullets and it rained for awhile. Of course, we were wet, zzz.

Pop Shuvit was good especially when they performed Marabahaya. Adrenaline pumped and we were on our feet, jumping like a bunch of monkeys. I'm sure it was Syafiq's favorite since he was looking forward to Pop Shuvit. The boys just had to be in the freaking mosh pit. It made us girls so vulnerable. Of course we were pushed and all but I'm proud to say that I didn't fall 8)

Bunkface was okay too but hey, was it a microphone problem or were you guys lip-syncing ? Out of a sudden, the sound system went down, such a bummer. Everyone was enjoying then poof ! This guy even told them to get off the stage ! Unsatisfied much ? They were back on track right after. We wanted to try doing our own mosh pit which was.. funny hahaha.

Thanks to the guys, we were saved from being pushed and all. Right after Sofia and Miera got pushed by those idiotic energizer bunnies who made a freaking mosh pit behind us, the guys became quite protective so they made a 'wall' around us by spreading their arms. Good job, good job.

Unfortunately, we were so stupid for not bringing our own water so yes, we were dehydrated. Thanks to Harisah, Safwat and two other guys I think, for buying us water ! Gosh, it must be hell on Earth going through the crowd and all.

They played a few techno songs and all before Tokio Hotel performed. It took them ages to get ready huh ? We danced and acted like we were in Zouk HAHA. Tried shuffling, tectonic, and everything. Safwat has skills man ! Hahahaha (y)

We were pumped, I think I burnt hundreds of calories ! And I think Miera & Mia have huge leg muscles now cause they were wearing high heels. I mean, like killer heels hahaha. Sat on the floor just to gain back our energy before Tokio Hotel performed. Erin, Syafiq and I talked about Kumar. Oh it never gets old :')

I lost my voice and my throat was throbbing but I sacrificed just to worship Bill and Tom Kaulitz *swoons* I hate myself for being short, I felt like slapping myself. Even if I tip-toed, I still couldn't see the stage. Even though I knew only 4 songs, I still enjoyed myself. And now, I know more than 4 songs from Tokio Hotel ! Unfortunately, they didn't perform Darkside of The Sun ): Huge bummer there. Erin, Amira, Harisah, Sofia, Razif, Syafiq and I got to go to the front so it made the view a whole lot better for me. Everything ended around 11 o'clock. My backbone was throbbing, when I sat at Burger King, it felt so good ! Hahaha. We had to move outside when the worker started to close the place. Chilled a bit in front of Burger King, exchanged hugs with those who were going home. Then Fahmi escorted me to the taxi stand. The first place I went right after I got home was the toilet. I was in need of a long bath ! Zzzz.

But well, it was one heck of a night, filled with lotsa fun spent with the awesome bunch :)

That was just the first day of May. The second, third and fourth aren't as great as the first.

Mom doesn't let me be active in sports anymore. No more running, marching, etc.. Nothing, none, nada, nil ! Why ? She's scared that my backbone will get worse. Gosh, this is why I hate having Scoliosis. But she's right though. After sprinting during Sports Day, every day my backbone hurts. Might be the friction that happens when it impacts and all, is it ? Haih, it looks like I'll be paying a visit to my backbone doctor.

Mom was admitted to the hospital yesterday night and well, I'm not gonna talk about it here. I might be saying hello to waterworks if I do so. Dad was admitted to the hospital just now and he will be going through a surgery tomorrow. It's bad enough, I don't want things to be worse. I might look okay but you have no idea how am I coping with this crap right now okay.

To spice things up, someone isn't satisfied. C'mon, don't let your emotion rule your mind. Let bygones be bygones. You don't have to bring it up again, it's annoying and it pisses me off. These four months have given me enough major headache, I don't want this month to be my fifth month. I've been on numerous hell rides on roads that are too rocky for me to bear with. I have had enough ! My parents aren't doing good, their healths are at stake. I don't want to mess my mind up with other problems that are not worth my time. Yes, not worth my time but who am I to avoid myself from thinking about it, right ?

My name has been rolling off your tongue quite often. Aren't you tired ?